Começos e re-começos

este início de ano foi bastante sui generis. e lamechices à parte, o início foi tão intenso - cheio de promessas de coisas novas e projectos interessantes que não estava à espera de ter
um precalso logo logo a seguir. isto de familaires engripados é uma chatice, que se torna ainda mais chata quando a seguir ficamos nós.

mas o precalso está quase ultrapassado, e enquanto o ultrapasso vou abrindo caminho para regressar aos projetos que 2014, enquanto puder, eles não me vão fugir assim tão facilmente. 

e se falo em re-começos é porque quero voltar a esse caminho que ando a desbravar, é porque quero me tornar independente. é um longo caminho, mas com projetos interessantes vou-me divertir à brava...

"- Mundos - balbuciou ela entre dentes. - Mundos de diferança. Mas eu consigo fazer isto."

"E perguntou-se onde teria ela deixado o resto de si. E porquê."

"E, fechando os olhos, cedeu à exaustão de ter de fingir ser normal."

living in a bubble

detail of an illustration

she felt like she lived in bubble.
sometimes, some days she could hear what was going outside. she could hear, but not completely understand it. there was always bits, parts, chunks that she couldn't quite get it.

it is hard to reach the outside of the bubble. unconsciously sometimes she doesn't even try to reach out, she is so wrapped with her own little bubble, with her little world, her (and hers only) world.

[it's easy to lose track of reality]

[it's easy to disconnect]

[it's easy to live in a fantasy]

head on the clouds | 012/365

Well last week I was down, because I was sick, this week it's my family that isn't that well. Nothing serious (I hope, I guess we are all hoping that) but the going to the doctor as been more than the regular.
The regular feeling as been that head in the clouds. Can't focus for too long on something, can't manage to do things that I know that I have to do. When I finally do realise about time, it's usually too late.

Truth is that, though I might think this kind of things can't affect me, they get me in the end (middle or elsewhere).

I need to organize my head, my life, and also accept a couple other things, until then I'll be in the clouds.

2014

At this time of the year many people wish good things that the new year shall bring. I have no idea what this new year will bring.

What I hope to act this year is totally different thing.
I hope to stand my ground, and keep the promises I make to myself.
I'll be 25, and I hope, that  even before that I start to work on fulfilling some of my dreams and personal projects.

(I know that won't be easy, mainly because it's hard for me to keep the promises and commitments that I made with myself, the others and the commitments I made with others come in first place. Saying no, and I can't to the others hasn't being an option, but will have to be sometimes. Other way it won't be possible to achieve my goals. - and I have so many of them. So many that I have been postponing just because of this and that and others.)

but things might change... if i stand my ground...